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Twizzler is currently at the Veterinary Emergency Center. Since her last chemo treatment on June 16th, she has slowly taken a downward spiral. Her lymph nodes have greatly enlarged, she’s been nauseous and has had difficulty breathing. Things aren’t looking good, but hopefully I’ll hear some kind of good news today when I pick her up…
I can’t help but think about losing her. I try not to; I try to focus on the time we do have with her, but it’s so hard. My heart aches continually and every time I leave the house, I can’t help but think that it might be the last time I see her. I’m normally a pretty optimistic person, but with her.. I’m anything but. She brings so much joy to my life that it’s hard to imagine life without her.
And as I sit here and think about the journey we’ve had thus far, I am constantly reminded how much my faith has grown throughout the treatment process. Continue reading